It IS true. I'm #141.
And I can't do it. I tried. People said they would help. But it can't work.
When the Pontifical Council for Social Communications posted this possibility, I thought "wow, that would be fun--AND I get to be at John Paul II's beatification as a bonus, I mean, I'm writing on the man's theology all next year--and I'm the only theologian I know who has never been to Rome, etc.--and (quick look online) well, the tickets don't look THAT crazy awful--and I need to renew my passport anyway and there are passport expediters that will rush it--OK! I'll send that email!"
Then, this weekend, I saw my name on the list. I gasped. I thought they were going to invite news bloggers, that's all. I must have been a lottery pick, but still! Wow! So what was yesterday like? I was still sick with the flu, got up at 5am with the wide awake toddler, had a wall to wall packed day with two daughters' birthday celebrations, my hubby was helping the Catholic Workers, I kept waiting for time to work on this, and then last night, my baby is up until midnight and I was catatonic with sleep deprivation and illness. But the little bit of flight and lodging searching I was able to do was looking a LOT worse than it had two weeks earlier.
Plus, we're trying to adopt a child with special needs internationally, for crying out loud. We're saving every last penny right now. And the more I look, this doesn't look like a $1000 amazing adventure--it's looking twice that. Plus it is in the last week of classes for my university, and I think that will be a pedagogical disaster if I am not there (they won't study for exams if I don't threaten them with how hard it will be!).
So, I have to say no. I really thought I'd be able to say yes. But its a no.
I'm really disappointed, I had lots of things to say about blogging and social media and what I've seen for five years. And I know lots of you bloggers applied and didn't make the lottery pick--and you would have been able to go. I'm very sorry. Honestly, I feel the worst about that. But the passion Sunday mass this morning reminded me--there are bigger sacrifices to make than not going to talk blogging at the Vatican.
But I hope they chose this blog because of the expose on the anti-ecclesial effects of Beanie Weenie Casserole. I can walk away from this with that inspiration.
Back to Lenten silence, folks. Blessed Holy Week.
the homebody IC